boys.

si. this is the boy post.

boys are as confusing as we think they are. you know why? because they're stupid. yeah, that's right. they is stupid. they is so stupid they confuse the hell outta us because they dun know what they want.

and that's why we get confused to. we dunno what we want. because we're stupid too.

we are all stupid.

that is why we is all confused about each other.

it isn't mixed or confusing signals. there's probably no signals at all. we just think there are because we're stupid, and we get confused because we're smart enough to realize that there's no signals but we're in too much denial to admit to it. that's what confuses us.

the grudge...or not.

i can't hold grudges...probably because i have such a short attention span =_=;;

Critique

haven't blogged in a while.

you know when teachers are always like, "constructive criticism only"? well believe that ALL criticism can be constructive, you just have to filter the criticism and find what is important in there to construct yourself. (does this even make sense?)

what i'm trying to say is, no matter what you do, there's gonna be someone that doesn't like what you are doing, and there's always going to be someone who does. but just because someone doesn't like your work doesn't make their opinion meaningless nor does someone liking your work mean that their opinion trumps all other crticisms.

basically, both criticisms are extremely bias; but that doesn't mean that they both don't hold any value.

if someone goes, "wtf, this shit sucks ass. what the hell were you thinking? this is just all wrong, you didn't put any thought into this, and you executed it all wrong" well, this may be a little harsh and very douchebaggy, but remember what i said at the beggining, FILTER. think about what this person actually did say other than "you fail at life," also reflect and think about yourself, "did i think this through? why did i do wrong in the execution of this?" some people are overly mean about some things, but it doesn't mean that they're wrong.

and the same goes for something like, "omg! this is so amazing! you're so talented! you should do more of this! this is perfect!" i personally think that it's harder to filter this kind of criticism, which is why i actually kind of hate it because 1. it feels super fake and 2. there's really no substance in it, if there's no problem, there's nothing to fix. but that's a lie. because there's always room for improvement, and this doesn't let you know what you need to work on. but, this kind of criticism is still valid because it shows you your strengths; which is something that most people are unaware of. sometimes when you get too much information, you sometimes need to be reminded of some constants in your life, like your talents or something.

i think there's two things about criticism that really get to me though, giving and recieving. you have to be able to recieve criticism well and be able to give good criticism. that means not sugar coating the hell out of it and not being a douchebag.

what pisses me off the most isn't people who GIVE bad, it's people who can't TAKE criticism. and not surprisingly, the people who can't take it well have NO idea that they can't. you know why? because they're so fucking full of themselves. they think that they're so correct and that they have everything done so perfectly that no one else matters, that the idea cannot be improved upon because it's already perfect, they only look for compliments, not criticism. and this is exactly why they piss me off, they have such a bad sense of reality that...they can't even admit it to themselves that they're wrong.

i think it's because they can't face themselves. like, they're afraid of what their going to see, they're afraid of their imperfections that are so visible to someone else's eyes. they want to be seen as perfect, or they just want to be seen. but there IS always room for improvement, so go ahead and put your all out there and show your imperfections, embrace the fact that they exist then change them.

you know what? when i'm an art teacher, i might start off my classes with this lecture, because a lot of people feel that when someone talks negatively about their art that the person is attacking them directly. and in a way, they are. art IS a way to express yourself, but there is a better way, or a more efficent way to show what you as who you are or make your statement be seen more clearly. when it all comes down to it, the technique is just as important as the statement, and if you want to be a successful artist, or even just an awesome person, you really have to be able to just put yourself out there, but love yourself enough to realize that you need to change. not only that but it gives you a chance to grow both artistically and mentally, it gives you a different perspective of yourself that you may not have noticed and although sometimes it may seem like you're being attacked directly (and in most cases, you will be because your art should reflect you) but you should open yourself to be attacked because you may not know what you are capable of.

damn youuuuu

talk to meeeeeeeeee

whoa, two posts in a day...i'm REALLY avoiding school work =/

Cycle of Poverty

I should really be paying attention in lecture, but this is bothering the hell out of me.

I remember in sophomore year in high school, I took a history class and we watched a video about poverty in the US and obviously it was one of those movies in history class that just makes you want to go out and kill someone because the whole world is so fucked up.

But anyway.

There was this one story about a lady named...Tammy? I'm just gonna say her name is Tammy. And she's like...POOR. She had four kids and she works at BURGER KING and she lives in a trailer and she has no teeth and EVERYTHING.

Well, one of her sons, I feel was a major douchebag. He's all like, "oh, I'm ashamed of my mom, she's always so scrubby looking. I try to look preppy and classy and I want to go to college" and I'm seriously just like, "Bitch, you better shut the fuck up talking about your mother like that, she walks 10 miles to work so that you CAN look all "preppy" and shit."

But as we were discussing the video in class afterwards, I specifically remember saying, "you know, if one of her boys would just get a job, she wouldn't have to work so hard." and the most surprising thing was what my TEACHER said right afterwards, "well, then that gets them sucked into the cycle of working instead of going to college"

WTF?

WTF???????????????????????

WTF???? How the hell is getting a part time job gonna stop that motherfucker from going to college?? We were sophomores and about 90% of the people in class had a part time job! And most of us were going to pursue a higher education degree! GETTING A MOTHERFUCKING PART TIME JOB WILL NOT DEFER YOU FROM GOING TO COLLEGE.

In fact, I think it better prepares you for college. If you can start managing your time in high school around a job and school and extracurricular activities, then in college where to work load is a lot harder and you have to fend for yourself, then you'll be better prepared. What, are your parents going to pay your rent until you get a degree and get a job? Are your parents going to come in every weekend and do your laundry? Are your parents going to come every night to make your dinner?

FUCK NO.

And if they are, YOU HAVE TO GET OFF YOUR LAZY ASS AND DO SOMETHING FOR YOURSELF.

Now, I know that some people just can't cook, I'm one of them. But I would never ask my mother or my father to cook for me EVERYDAY, or do my laundry or pay my rent. It's my responsibility and I need to take care of it myself.

I mean seriously, it pisses me off how much some people still rely on their parents. You are a grown ass motherfucking person and you need to start taking care of your own shit. And if your parents are doing some thing wrong...then you better get off your ass, stop complaining, and try to fix their mistakes; god knows that they did that for YOU your whole life.

Maybe that's the cause for the cycle of poverty, the dependence on the earlier generation, the pussyassness of the new generation. A lot of people complain about being poor and not being able to get out of the cycle of poverty; well, it is hard to get out of the cycle of poverty, but with some motherfuckers just sitting back and complaining about it...isn't going to do anything. People are going to have to sacrifice a shit ton of things in order to make any kind of progress, they are going to have to work their ass off in order to achieve what they want. If you can't even get that concept right, then fuck it, maybe you're meant to stay in the same place forever and you're meant to not make any progress.

fuck you too, world

today's not starting on a good note. fuck my life.

and my throat's scratchy. =_=

haters. fuck you too.

straight up. no ice.

why can't people just say things to my face instead of indirectly calling me out? it's so obvious that it's sad and you don't have to bring it out to the public, it just leaves people confused.