"you don't know me"

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeell who's fucking fault is that???

god, i hate it when people are all like "people think they know me, but they don't" well, guess what? people only know what you tell them. and if they go digging in your business, you wouldn't like it now would you?! so don't be throwing fits because people don't "know you" why don't you just start telling people more about yourself then? geeez.

"i'm a model!"

yeah...take your clothes off, do a "sexy" pose and boom! you is a model! just like tyra and giselle!

no, actually, you're just a whore...

i hate how people think sexy is always like...loads of make up and very little clothes...i mean, anyone can be "sexy" kneeling on her knees putting on that "fuck me" face so wouldn't it be an actual skill if you can be sexy with your clothes on?

yeah, sexy has the word "sex" in it, but that doesn't mean...be a whore. no, i think it's completely possible to be sexy and have your clothes on. it's also possible to turn someone on while being completely clothed.

also, how the hell can you do that to yourself? degrade yourself into an image, an object of sexual desire, do you not have any substance in you? do you not have any respect for you or your body?

now, i know that nudity is usually associated with sex, because when you have sex, you are usually nude (unless it's a quickie, then you're not necessarily completely nude, but let's not get into details). but i personally think that just because you're nude doesn't automatically mean that you're ready to be sexed.

like...for example, David. (yeah, huge historical sculpture, David) David, as we all know, is very much nude. and he is, as we all know, very very very sexy. however, i dunno about you guys, but i honestly do not get turned on when i see him. i appreciate his...masculinity, i really do. he's a sexy 15 year old. however, the sculpture doesn't scream "fuck me." it pretty much shows a human being in his most natural state, nude.

and i honestly feel that nudity is very beautiful, there's no illusion from your clothes making you appear longer or skinnier, there's nothing hiding you. it's all of you in your most natural state. no illusions. and i'm pretty upset that nudity is so associated with sexual activity.

and by the way, is sex really that bad? many societies in the world in the span of history see sex as a horrific act. accepted only in the privacy of a married couple, talked about in innuendos but never discussed in full of itself. and i've always thought that it's weird, because sex can be a very beautiful thing, but it's such a...sensitive topic. and it's almost universal in almost every culture in the history of mankind spanning the globe. i don't know why this is, and i don't exactly want to find the answer, i'll leave that to the anthropologists. but honestly...sex and nudity isn't that bad, so why do we treat it like it's the plague?

wow, this blog post has taken quite a turn that i wasn't exactly expecting. o.o

anyway. just because a professional photographer takes a picture of you and with all his little studio umbrellas and whatnot doesn't make you a model. it just means that that photographer is most likely a pervert. :D

fake people.

what does it mean to be fake?

i guess it determines who you ask...but i think overall, everyone agrees that a fake person is someone who obviously has a personality issue.

anyway.

i feel that...just because you're polite doesn't mean you're fake. i think that just because you're pleasant doesn't mean you're fake. i think that just because you're nice doesn't mean you're fake.

because if that's the case...then it means that you really are a mean, rude, bitch of a person. but pretend to be a nice, sweet person so that people will like you. and...i don't think there's anyone out there that's...that terrible of a person.

and anyone who thinks that being respectful or being nice is being fake, you really need a reality check. just because i don't cuss out anyone who annoys me doesn't mean that i'm a pushover or that i'm fake. it means that i'm a fucking lady.

I didn't say that

Well, you sure as hell implied it. So why don't you stop being such a punk ass bitch and own up to your barking?

hey vegans and vegetarians

just a fyi...animals eat other animals too. human beings aren't the only ones that love the sweet tender juiciness of another being.

just thought you should think about that :]

ass violation.

ok, dunno why i titled it that but i thought it was funny xD

but yeah. glad to know that people can talk to me. i've never really been "that" person...y'know, the one that people talk to, but i remember really wanting to be that person in like middle school...then kinda gave up after realizing that sennett was full of people who have never had an original thought in their mind and who don't really have problems but thought they did.

but anyway.

i was also scared to be that person though. because i always thought that i wasn't mature enough, wasn't smart enough, and wasn't nice enough to be that person. because i think i'm a little, tiny bit evil in my core.

but then i find people starting to open up to me more and more...and i found that sometimes people just needs someone to listen. not looking for advice or anything, just...an ear. and it came...pretty naturally to me. i didn't have to say anything, i just have to sincerely care about that person.

i mean...i feel that i'm a pretty open person. i sometimes lie about the littlest thing, but i'm generally a pretty open person. i wear my heart on my sleeve. you can tell when i'm happy and when i'm upset...i think.

but not a lot of people feel that they know me...well...i'm not that complicated. i'm not some complex being with multitudes and full of complicated feelings or whatnot. i'm...just me. what you see is usually what you get with me. i'm all me all the time :]

self image

cute picture eh?

but seriously. it surprises me to no end how wrong some people see themselves. some people think they're fatter than they really are. some people think they look better than they really do. some people think they're unique, even though they are exactly like everyone else. some people think that they're working so much harder than they really are. some people think they're right when they are in reality, so so very much wrong.

and i cannot stand these people at all.

how can you be so shallow and narrow minded? you can't see yourself from another perspective, so who are you to judge other people? you don't even know yourself or how others think of you. a lot of people think "oh, i don't care what others think of me" but you SHOULD. because sometimes, they might show you something that you're unaware of yourself. some people might think you're some stuck up bitch, and even if you know in your heart that you aren't, you should try to understand why in the world they would think such a thing. and change yourself so that they would change their mind.

and what also annoys me is when people are all "oh, damn straight i'm a bitch. i'm the baddest bitch out there."

no. NO. being a bitch is BAD. you DON'T want to be a bitch or known to be a bitch.

changing yourself doesn't mean that you don't accept yourself, it means that you love yourself enough to accept that you have flaws and are dealing with them in a positive way.

ok well, this blog post is going in an unexpected direction. i was gonna rant about some bitch but ended up talking about something else hehe xD