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whoa, two posts in a day...i'm REALLY avoiding school work =/

Cycle of Poverty

I should really be paying attention in lecture, but this is bothering the hell out of me.

I remember in sophomore year in high school, I took a history class and we watched a video about poverty in the US and obviously it was one of those movies in history class that just makes you want to go out and kill someone because the whole world is so fucked up.

But anyway.

There was this one story about a lady named...Tammy? I'm just gonna say her name is Tammy. And she's like...POOR. She had four kids and she works at BURGER KING and she lives in a trailer and she has no teeth and EVERYTHING.

Well, one of her sons, I feel was a major douchebag. He's all like, "oh, I'm ashamed of my mom, she's always so scrubby looking. I try to look preppy and classy and I want to go to college" and I'm seriously just like, "Bitch, you better shut the fuck up talking about your mother like that, she walks 10 miles to work so that you CAN look all "preppy" and shit."

But as we were discussing the video in class afterwards, I specifically remember saying, "you know, if one of her boys would just get a job, she wouldn't have to work so hard." and the most surprising thing was what my TEACHER said right afterwards, "well, then that gets them sucked into the cycle of working instead of going to college"

WTF?

WTF???????????????????????

WTF???? How the hell is getting a part time job gonna stop that motherfucker from going to college?? We were sophomores and about 90% of the people in class had a part time job! And most of us were going to pursue a higher education degree! GETTING A MOTHERFUCKING PART TIME JOB WILL NOT DEFER YOU FROM GOING TO COLLEGE.

In fact, I think it better prepares you for college. If you can start managing your time in high school around a job and school and extracurricular activities, then in college where to work load is a lot harder and you have to fend for yourself, then you'll be better prepared. What, are your parents going to pay your rent until you get a degree and get a job? Are your parents going to come in every weekend and do your laundry? Are your parents going to come every night to make your dinner?

FUCK NO.

And if they are, YOU HAVE TO GET OFF YOUR LAZY ASS AND DO SOMETHING FOR YOURSELF.

Now, I know that some people just can't cook, I'm one of them. But I would never ask my mother or my father to cook for me EVERYDAY, or do my laundry or pay my rent. It's my responsibility and I need to take care of it myself.

I mean seriously, it pisses me off how much some people still rely on their parents. You are a grown ass motherfucking person and you need to start taking care of your own shit. And if your parents are doing some thing wrong...then you better get off your ass, stop complaining, and try to fix their mistakes; god knows that they did that for YOU your whole life.

Maybe that's the cause for the cycle of poverty, the dependence on the earlier generation, the pussyassness of the new generation. A lot of people complain about being poor and not being able to get out of the cycle of poverty; well, it is hard to get out of the cycle of poverty, but with some motherfuckers just sitting back and complaining about it...isn't going to do anything. People are going to have to sacrifice a shit ton of things in order to make any kind of progress, they are going to have to work their ass off in order to achieve what they want. If you can't even get that concept right, then fuck it, maybe you're meant to stay in the same place forever and you're meant to not make any progress.

fuck you too, world

today's not starting on a good note. fuck my life.

and my throat's scratchy. =_=

haters. fuck you too.

straight up. no ice.

why can't people just say things to my face instead of indirectly calling me out? it's so obvious that it's sad and you don't have to bring it out to the public, it just leaves people confused.

simpering simpleton

i don't get it, i'm such a simple person...but sometimes it seems like no one gets me o.o

competition

you know what sucks more than losing all the time? winning all the time.

i can't say that i win all the time, heck, i don't win ever. but, coming from someone who loses all the time, it seems like the people who win all the time are just as bored, of not more bored than those who lose all the time.

i'm not really competitive, which is probably why i lose all the time, but just because you lose doesn't mean that you still can't have fun, right? why is winning always associated with fun? and just because you lose, why does it mean that you're not good at something? it simply means that someone's better.

for example, take tetris. i effin' love that game. with so much passion, it scares me a little. for a while, i did think of it as a competition, i needed to have the highest score out of all of my family and friends. and when someone beat me, i had to win my spot back. but then...i realized that i started to get really frustrated when i played, that i was critical of every move i did and cursed myself whenever i made a wrong move.

that's no fun.

then one day, i realized that hey...why do something that causes me so much distress? so i stopped playing tetris for a while. and it was pretty sad. because remember: i love that game with so much passion it scares me a little. so, when i stopped, i suffered from some tetris withdrawal, and that was not a pretty picture, i was crabby a lot of the time, i felt like i didn't want to do anything. all the time i spent playing tetris was now focused on school...which makes me depressed.

so one day i finally decided to start playing again, just for fun. and you know what? i didn't care about making the right moves or beating my high score, i just played because it was fun. and guess what? i DID beat my high score! it was so...exciting and exhilarating that from then on i completely gave up playing tetris competitively. and it's helped me a lot, i don't stress about it anymore, and when i do play it, i'm just...happy.

so i tried applying this to everything else; sure i'm not the best of the best, heck, i'm barely average. but fuck being the best and fuck winning all the time, sometimes you win and sometimes you lose but what should stay consistent is the fun and joy you get when you do something.

and also...if you win all the time...what's the fun in that?? you're not being challenged, you're just gonna have to go out of your way to find a "worthy" challenger or just try and outdo yourself, and for what? who are you trying to impress? if you're doing this for "you" then why are you causing yourself all of this unnecessary stress? and finally, why does life have to always be a challenge?