empty words.

i hate when i have nothing to say. because i usually do have something to say.

but when i do have something to say, i gotsta says it.

so i hate it when i want to say something, i can feel it, but then nothing comes out. i'm just blank.

what's worse is when i do come up with something of substance to say, it's usually too late. and then i'm just like...fuck.

and when it gets like that, i'm just like, "tia, just spit out some words! c'mon, just say something"

but i can't.

i guess i can't say things just to say things...i can't do..filler things in a conversation. i mean, i do the whole, "hahahaha" "lol" thing, but it's not really fillers...i'm really laughing.

i mean...i guess i prefer silence over...forced conversation.

i guess it does get kinda awkward when the conversation dies down and it's just kind of...quiet, but what's even more awkward is when you try to carry on a conversation that's obviously dead, then it's just a bunch of dead end comments. nothing serious, nothing engaging. and that to me...is worse. =]

i dunno...i don't like empty words. i mean...not every word that comes out of your mouth has to be entirely thought out and meaningful...but if you got something to say, you should say it and if you don't got anything to say...well, i guess that's ok too. even if you really do want to make conversation...=\