geez.

it's weird as hell how much attention you get when you get into a relationship. people act like it's such a big fucking deal. it really isn't! god. you get some random ass people coming up to you all like "who's your bf?" "who's that guy on fb?" "omg, that was your man?" shiiiiit. it's like "fuck, you never come up to me just to say 'hi' before, but now that i'm involved, i'm all of a sudden the most interesting thing in the world???" shiiit. i think busting my mouth is a hell of a lot more interesting than getting into a relationship. people get into relationships all the time, but not everyone gets into a skiing accident! wtf. weird people. it's obvious where their priorities are.

but the most annoying thing, is when they don't even see me as myself anymore it's always "you and your bf" "you and your bf" "you and your bf" what, am i not invited if he doesn't come along? shit. sorry bout that, but i still have a life of my own. fuck.

FUCK YOU.

FUCK YOU AND YOU.

みなちゃん。。。

別れたくない。。。<3

speak your mind, eh?

if you're going to regret saying it, just don't say it at all.

hm.

sometimes i wish i gave a fuck. but i don't.

but what i do care about is the fact that the world isn't just black and white. the world isn't even a fucking grayscale. there's colors of different hues, saturations, tints and shades. (yes, i spend way too much time coloring).

so why the fuck do people keep acting like there's only two sides to an issue?

if life was that easy, the world wouldn't be so angry.

honestly, sometimes not giving a fuck isn't a bad thing. we don't have to have a fucking opinion on every fucking issue.

and omfg, we don't need to be so fucking "passionate" about something. shit. and even if we are, we should still be considerate about other people, maybe they don't give a rat's ass no matter how much we talk about something.

what's the worse is when people get all caught up in the fucking hysteria. sure you care, but not half as much as you think you do, so stop acting like you're going to save the fucking world and just stfu.

100 things i like!

i'm stealing this from katie! :D

1. i like you!
2. i like cupcakes.
3. i like red velvet cheesecake
4. i like cheesecake ice cream
5. i like sudoku
6. i don't like japanese. but i like it too
7. i like to paint
8. i like to draw
9. i like charcoal
10. i like mixing paints!
11. i like to read
12. i like to listen to music
13. i like to eat
14. i like eating good food!
15. i like eating out
16. i like spicy food
17. I LOVE SAM
18. i love all my nieces and nephews actually, i just really miss holding sam right now
19. aww, i miss hugging titus
20. i miss hugging tyra too
21. i miss trinityyyyy
22. oh, this changed didn't it. well yeah. i like my babies. all of them
23. i miss and love my grandma
24. i like peter
25. i like darell
26. i love eric
27. i like jokes!
28. i like to laugh
29. i like my new smile
30. i like my goofy smile
31. i like long showers
32. i like long naps
33. i love to sleep
34. i like pepsi
35. i like soda in general actually
36. i love children's movies. especially from my own childhood.
37. I. LOVE. WALL-E. he's my ideal boyfriend.
38. i like singing/screaming at the top of my lungs
39. i like my sisters
40. i like my brothers
41. i like my parents
42. i like my friends! <3 y'all
43. i like my ta's, they're all always super nice
44. i like to play jokes :D
45. i like chatting
46. i like when people initiate chats, it doesn't matter who they are or what they want to talk about :D
47. i like meeting new people!
48. i like catching up with people!
49. i like my people!!!!!!!!!!!!
50. i like sleeping with sam
51. i like max and chikom's conversations
52. i like talking to max
53. i like talking to chikom
54. i love conversations with my grandma
55. i like laughing until i cry
56. i like to read. books, blogs, magazine articles, facebook pages. the only thing i probably don't like reading is...class readings...
57. i like late night talks
58. i like waking up in the morning feeling like a ray of sunshine
59. i like that feeling when you feel shitty and you go to sleep and you wake up feeling like a million bucks~
60. i love to play tetris
61. i love games in general. even the ones i'm not good at :D
62. i like meat.
63. i like veggies too.
64. i like...foodlike substances...
65. i like chocolate. the darker the chocolate, the richer the taste!
66. i love it when my grandma comes over
67. i love it when sam and max come over
68. i love it when titus, trinity and tyra come over
69. i love it when my whole entire family is together
70. i love that feeling of completeness when everyone i lurves is together and just for a few hours, the world makes sense
71. even though i don't like doing homework, i like getting homework done
72. i like eskimo kisses
73. i like butterfly kisses
74. i like snuggling with my favorite person, sam!!!!
75. i like shopping for baby clothes!!!
76. i like shopping for baby shoes!!!!!!!!!!
77. i love how i can find clothes that fit me in the children's section! i guess this means that my tastes are very childish and immature...but fuck it, it's cheap :D
78. i like pancakes
79. i like waffles
80. i like waffle wednesday
81. i love us.
82. i love hugs!!!
83. i like texting
84. i like getting excited!
85. i like getting scared!!!!!!!!!!!!
86. i love awesome surprises!
87. i love surprising people!!!!!!!!!!!!
88. i love making the people i love feel loved <3
89. i love music
90. i loveloveloves my grandma. i love her smile. i love her stories. i love how she tells her stories. i love her great cooking. i love her company. i love...everything about her.
91. i love when people get me
92. i love photoshop
93. i like facebook!
94. i love blogging~
95. i like free food!!
96. i like to creep on people!
97. i love when people offer to go downstairs with me!
98. i love getting carried! piggy back rides, getting picked up and moved to the side because i'm in the way...all that good stuffs
99. i like my passwords
100. i like that i'm finally done with this!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG it actually took a while to finish this...it's hard to think of things you like...finding things you hate or dislike is much much easier. :D

=]

i'm all different kinds of happy.

love and trust

‎"I trust you" is better than "I love you" cause you may not always trust the person you love but you can always love the person you trust.

this was on my brother's status. :/

i tried to be a smart aleck and was all like "trust and love go hand in hand"

but seriously...

depending on who's saying it, i would much prefer "i love you" because to me, "love" already has the implications of trust in it.

god, trust is so freaking overrated in the first place, i fucking hate it when people are all whiny and shit like "oh, i trusted you and you broke my trust" "i used to trust the human race but now i don't even know" "i used to trust people but i keep getting hurt" "you can only trust yourself in this world" blahblahblahblahfreakin'blah.

seriously, you trust a lot of people to do a lot of things. there's different degrees of trust that's all.

you trust that the bus driver does his/her job well and gets you to where you need to go on time. you trust that your professor/ta's are grading your shit without their own bias against you. hell, you freaking trust the random strangers anywhere to not be some crazy motherfucker who will shank your ass.

so why even bother putting trust on a motherfuckin pedestal? people overrate trust so much and sure, you're gonna trust some people a little bit too much. sometimes you think you're a little bit too safe and sometimes, just sometimes, you have a slip of judgement and that shit sucks. but hey, life goes on.

yep. it was for you.

okok, this was for you, but i clicked "publish" instead of "save" and it wasn't done yet. so yeah. sorry bout that. little sneak preview, that's all. but, here it is:

i don't think this is going to fit on a valentine's day card.

but you keep saying i should write about more interesting stuff, so i'll write about your favorite subject. you.*

*that is a link. click on it.

DISCLAIMER: um...ladies, i don't think you'll enjoy this post very much, sorry bout that. maybe it's best if you don't read this at all :D

ok, back to you.

remember that one conversation when we were talking about "why me?" and like...somehow you were able to come up with some pretty awesome, legit reasons for why you're with me and i couldn't come up with reasons why i'm with you? well, i've been thinking about it (a LOT) and here are some reasons why i keep ya around.

no matter how offensive, tasteless and degrading your jokes are, they always manage to make me laugh.

you're extremely considerate

you talk a LOT. but i feel that we talk about things that i wouldn't talk to anyone else about. and i really enjoy our conversations.

ok. this is probably the thing i love most about you, and it will probably the the one characteristic of you that i'll continue to respect you for after you leave me for a white girl. you're... unbelievably kind and understanding. almost to the point where you make mother teresa look like a bitch. almost.

you make me feel pretty. that sounds very arrogant and self centered. but really, you make me feel pretty and i really appreciate that. you even make me feel pretty with no teeth. that's pretty awesome.

i like how our smiles match. matched. will match again. :D

you let me set the pace. even though you walk really really fast, you slow down for me. and i'll try to walk faster in the future...but i'm not making any promises.

also, with that, you're really patient.

you're so weird and hilariously awkward. i loves it.

you like the way i talk. you're probably the only person in the whole entire world who does. =]

ok. i admit it. i like your hugs.

i like how much you let me get away with. i keep pushing your buttons and you still don't hate me for it.

i also love how you keep your cool. even if you're annoyed or irritated, you still keep your head in line.

you're brutally honest, even though your opinions don't matter sometimes, you still voice them.

and with that, i like how you don't shove your ideas and views down people's throats and understand that some people just don't give a shit about stuff. :]

i like how much you like cats. honestly, the title of your cat post reminds me of lady gaga's "boys, boys, boys" just the title though. haha

i like...how you get me. i dunno, i feel like you get me in a way that no one else does and...i dunno. it's pretty cool.

i loves how adorable you are.

i like how you can get along with just about anyone. you can just start talking to a random person like you've known them forever.

you take criticism really well. no matter how brutal.

i like how you smell

i like how open you are about pretty much everything.

so. be my valentine?

conformist.

you. make. me. sick.

you have no substance of your own.

you want a passion, a purpose, a voice of your own.

but you are just an echo.

you mistake your echo for a voice of your own.

you mistake your fighting for a purpose.

you mistake your passing fancy for a passion.

you. are. nothing.

you don't know who you are, what you're doing and why you're doing it.

you think you're someone, but you're not.

you think you're doing something, but you're not.

you think you know why you're doing it, but you don't.

you are just a follower, someone who jumps on a bandwagon.

you are the type to give your all into anything you set your mind to, so don't think that you genuinely care about something just because you give it 120%. you really don't. it's just your nature, your personality to do and overdo it. it's not a passion.

it's so sad. because you have so much potential, so much to bring to anything you want, but you lack...love.

you don't love anything. everything is just a phase, you're all about it today. but what about tomorrow? what about next week? what about next year?

you're so indecisive. you think that just because you like it at the moment, you love it. but once you get into it, you realize how shallow you really are and back out when it's too late.

and guess what. it's too late.

god damn you.

stop making me feel so special.

バルンタインデー

大めぐるみがほしいです！

FUCKING SHIT!

GAH.

and the worst part is knowing that i did it to myself. IT'S ALL MY MOTHERFUCKING FAULT.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

carmex

i had a dream last night that someone...i don't remember who, but i someone i know, i think even a family member, but anyway.

i was putting on carmex and that someone was all like "you should put carmex on like thiiis" and i was just like "wtf. really?" LOL

yeah. lame dream, but i was pretty irritated.

moral of the story: don't say stupid shit around me.

:/

koreans fail at being gentlemen. fo real.

blargh!

i can't write anything anymore!!!!!!!!! i'm so tiredddddddddddddddd

SNOW DAY!!!!!!!!!!!

ugh. i feel like i've been given a second chance. and knowing me, i'd blow it off. just like i do all the time. =[

it's like that one episode of the simpsons when bart prays for a snow day and god gives him a snow day so he can retake a test LOL gahhhhh don't fuck with me like this godddd i'm not worthyyyy

明日、勉強しょう！たくさん勉強しなくちゃいけません！